I'm thinking it's his age, but lately Baker is about as cute and as frustrating as can be. And it's not his fault. He really is the cutest (and tiniest) little toddler there ever was, but he has almost single-handedly stopped all productivity here at One Little Momma. He is into everything, wavers between wanting to be held 24/7 and wanting to explore, and is still my worst sleeper. I'm embarrassed to admit how often he wakes up at night and while he may be my fourth, I'm definitely doing everything wrong with him. I'm just doing my best to get us both back to sleep as quickly as possible, and if that means nursing four times in one night, so be it. I've slowly accepted that sleeping is a hobby and that I don't get to spend time on that hobby this month, or last month, or maybe next month. :)
I've felt a huge decrease in the amount of spare time I have to get work done, and the blog has suffered the brunt of it. Nickel & Suede is the pressing, puts-food-on-the-table, family business kind of work, so blogging has been sidelined. But I keep reminding myself that it's all just a phase and things will naturally shift and change as time goes on. Eventually more of my time will free up in one way or another, and I know that.
When I started blogging I was the model of consistency, and it really taught me a lot. I would suggest to any new blogger that if they did anything, they should be consistent. It's essential for getting your blog out there and keeping people coming back. If I missed a day or two back then, I was STRESSING OUT. But as you can see I've missed about, oh, the entire month of September, and I've survived. I love blogging, and so I'll keep writing at my pace and at my life's pace. And on days that I can't write or create content here, you can always find me somewhere on social media.
Right now I want to spend time with my kids, keep our house somewhat together, and keep running boys to soccer practice. I'm in the middle of an amazing time of life where I have a baby, but I also have big boys who have lots of things going on with school and sports. I struggle with the nagging thoughts that I didn't get anything done today or that my kids are constantly in my way - when in reality, I did a lot for them today, and I want to be grateful for them and all of the wonderful things that come with being a mom. It is my most important job and the easiest one to take for granted.
But I have MISSED expressing my thoughts, ideas, and opinions over here. So bear with me as I try to continue to write and share what I can, when I can. It will be in between the spare moments of my momma hustle.