I can't say how happy I am to have new content to share over here at OLM. It may not be a ground breaking outfit or one that gets re-pinned 1000 times, but it's new and it's mine. If you haven't guessed life is a little crazy right now. I'm a little crazy right now. I'm going a hundred miles an hour constantly and barely keeping up with things. Work is never ending (good problem), we're adjusting to four kids,and well, it's the holidays! And so, blogging has had to take a back seat. Which I hate. Blogging is my outlet and my thing and I've been missing it. I enjoy sharing outfits and what we are up to and tutorials and beauty tips. I really do. But there's a time and a place for everything and this season is what it is.
I was telling Soren the other day that I constantly fall short of a lot of things that I once thought would be a given in my life. I thought I'd be the kind of mom that makes dinner every night and puts up Christmas decorations exactly the day after Thanksgiving. I thought I would volunteer at the school and take my kids to story time. But I don't. I'm 20 minutes late everywhere I go and I'm living on a prayer just to get my kid on the bus every day. I hate it. I just want to feel put together again! And live up to the mom and person I expected I would be.
But the flip side of that is that I have become a lot of things that I would never have guessed I'd become. Five years ago I would never have guessed I'd be a style blogger or a business owner or a designer or a photo stylist. I wouldn't have thought I would be working from home or that Soren would be working from home with me. And I love all of those unexpected roles that have become mine. I love seeing where God has placed our family and what he has helped us build. It's a tough realization is that some of those blessings taken the space of the things I always thought I would do or be. However, right now its coming down to having faith in the bigger picture and the bigger plan. Things might be chaotic and less than put together right now, but they won't always be. Things will change and thing will work themselves out. The plan for my life and my kids' life is bigger than me, so I'm trying to get out of my own way and just embrace the journey. Chaos has a way of making me rely much more on grace daily and I can positively say that is a good start!