ONE little MOMMA: Crazy Pregnant

Crazy Pregnant

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SWEATER- Old Navy // JEANS- Nordstrom // SHOES- Thrifted // BAG- Sole Society c/o // EARRINGS- Nickel & Suede // BRACELETS- Forever 21 // SUNGLASSES- Grocery store special
The benefit of having been pregnant a few times before is that I understand pregnant-Kilee a little better. No matter how optimistic I start out each pregnancy- normal-Kilee leaves for 9 months (and longer) and pregnant-Kilee replaces her. I'm always hoping to still behave like myself, still feel like myself and just grow a baby on the side. But that growing a baby actually takes over everything and I end up going a little crazy. 

When I was pregnant with Easton I didn't understand those things at all. I didn't understand how much my hormones depress me or stress me out or change my eating habits. So I ended up dying my hair black (bad idea), trying out bangs (also bad idea) and eating everything that sounded good (also bad idea). It took me a while to find myself again after I had Easton. And honestly as soon as I got close to that I was pregnant with Kesler. 

I don't think I have any tangible evidence of crazy during Kesler's pregnancy, but I guess I did coupon like a crazy person during that time. We had more hot chocolate and laundry stain spray than we could ever go through- but I don't count those things as negative. So I did okay.

With Knox I had already started blogging so I can go back and see some of my outfit choices or my hair during that time and feel like 'ugh.' My judgement wasn't very good and I didn't quite see myself exactly as I looked. I mean don't get me wrong, some of my past maternity style I do like, but things only got better after I was done being pregnant. 

So to continue the saga, this last pregnancy that ended in a miscarriage and this one, I was able to tell almost immediately that I was pregnant because my crazy-self started creeping back in. My mood swings are out of control, I am super unmotivated, all food sounds good all of the time and I can't stop eating. I also start hate all of my clothes (they don't fit the same anymore) and can't decide what clothes I do like. Usually I only feel safe in Soren's sweats. Ugh. See what I mean? I'm not myself. I crash at about 8 pm every night and naps need to start being a regular thing. I realize this sounds like classic pregnancy- but why the immediate transformation?? I know Soren is not amused- but he know's crazy-pregnant-Kilee pretty well to so he's on the look out for dark hair dye and outfits that are really off. 

THIS outfit however- I do feel good it. It's baggy in an appropriate way and still feels put together. I'm not one to wear things on repeat, but crazy-Kilee might be. 

Do you feel like a totally different person when you are pregnant? How do you change?

15 comments:

  1. Pregnancy was not for me! I only did it once and that was enough. I was an emotional mess, sick, very tired...ugh. I tried to enjoy it though, because I knew early on I was never doing it again!

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  2. thank you for being so real!

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  3. Dang you have the BEST thrift finds!!! Especially thrifted Fryes?! I don't know how you do it but...*takes bow of appreciation* nice work :)

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  4. I can empathize with the crazy pregnant stuff. I was crazy during and for a while after 😄. I love your blog and envy your thrifting luck!

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  5. I agree... crazy. I felt sorry whenever I saw a pregnant lady till my last child turned six! I told my husband I actually felt love for him again when my daughter was three months old and wondered what had been the problem for the last year. He carefully mentioned that He hadn't been pregnant. Ha! Ha!
    I'll be praying for you!! This too will pass & what a gift this new one will be!

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  6. Ahh, pregnancy! Spiritually, with my first I found myself (14rs). I enjoyed every minute of it. I ate super healthy – no sugar, exercised and took time for myself. My fashion and hair sense really went down the tubes though. I look back at maternity pictures of me and wonder what the heck happened. I really thought I looked cute and put together too. After giving birth is when I lost myself. It literally took me a couple years to find myself again. I had no idea what was in fashion, what hair style would look good on me or what shade of blush would work. I never went with black hair, but I went platinum baby. I remember looking at myself at a gas station bathroom and that’s when it hit me. I had to pull myself together.
    With my second (3yr) I was much older, wiser and able to keep it together. I did not decide to give myself a new hair style or wear my husbands polo’s to work. I had fun with fashion. I continued to keep a strict fitness plan going, but discovered that chocolate was a food source. Although, I tried to eat healthy…I didn’t restrict my sugar intake.
    Your doing great! When they say life is a journey; women are lucky enough to toss pregnancy in that journey. Love your blog! Thanks for being real.

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  7. First of all you LOOK great--perfect slouchy, relaxed, but still cute and put-together. I've only been pregnant once, but I definitely felt the crazy. I remember telling my husband that I felt like I had no control over my body or my emotions. And motivation, yep, I didn't have any of that either. I just wanted to nap and eat ice cream. And yet, I totally want to do that again! Maybe that's even more crazy, but the end result...so worth it :)
    Shea Lennon

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  8. Aren't we all so unique? I actually feel my best when pregnant and nursing. Tricky because I can't do that the rest of my life. these last 6 months have been crazy for my body and throw in a crazy 18 month old and

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  9. I started following your blog when you were pregnant with Knox and loved your style (and still do!) I think having a changing sense of style is part of growing older (and hopefully wiser, right?!) so Im excited to see what your style will be this pregnancy! No pressure though, I pretty much think you can do no wrong, I beat you make Soren's sweats look good!

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  10. That is a great casual outfit! I was pregnant or nursing for 3 yrs straight and now that I'm done nursing my energy level has increased so much! Rob would offer an activity idea before and ask if I wanted to go, or if he should just take the older kids. 90% of the time I would say I want to stay home. Sometimes I have to remind myself that I do want to do those things now (cup I know I have enough energy to enjoy them). Of course I also had crazy mood swings, didn't want to be around my husband and cried / yelled alot. If it wasnt like that, I'd want to have babies every year I love them so much.

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  11. I LOVE this outfit! And although you probably don't want to hear this, you don't look pregnant at all, you look great! It's nice to hear someone speaking about the negative aspects of pregnancy. I very much hated being pregnant! I also felt like a completely different person and could not wrap my head around why people enjoyed being pregnant. And because no one talked about hating pregnancy I felt so alone and weird. So thank you for saying this out loud for your readers to here!

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  12. I loved bring pregnant for once I didn't obsess over what my stomach looked like and food was merely something that I had to have because I was starving not sometiphing I daydreamed about and lusted over. Now that I'm pregnant with my second I am still amazed at how quickly my relationship with food changes. There are so few things that sound good and yet I am constantly starving. I hate cooking which I normally love. I didn't really notice the emotional ups and downs so I feel blessed for that.

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  13. Yes yes and yes!! I am so glad you wrote this. I am the same way. This is my third pregnancy and I knew right away. I Totally become a different person - with both it took over a year to feel like myself. I so wish I wasn't like that and pregnancy didn't take over my entire being, but I'm not and I'm adjusting to that. At least I'll be back soon and I know that now.

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  14. Seriously, I love reading your posts! Please don't stop, it helps me think I'm Not alone in this 'CCrazy Pregnancy ride!'

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  15. Love that bucket bag, and your sandals!!

    xo,

    Emma
    http://www.sassystreet.com/

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