Seriously- Catch Up is the best name I can think of for this post, and for life in general right now. I am realizing that I have a lot on my plate and it has become more than I can chew. I'm being real today just so that you know that I can't do it all. I'm admitting defeat a little bit. Knox has started to wake up more and wants to be held (heaven forbid) and he isn't on a schedule yet- so pretty much all of my spare time is GONE. I wasn't not expecting it, but its still rough to actually deal with. My house is chaos, orders are going out late, and blog posts are being written by the skin of my teeth. I feel like I am always catching up and it is exhausting for someone who likes to be prepared and ready for everything ahead of time!
I know this is just that time of life for me, but it is hard to be torn between being a mom (which I love but is demanding) and working which is awesome and hard in a different way. I want to put my kids and husband first, but after that, I have been trying to identify what has to go.
I have two Etsy shops and the blog- all of which I am trying to expand right now. I also start my turn teaching our preschool co-op next week and I'm still taking my ballet class once a week. Not to mention I have two races that I should be training for, but am usually too tired to get up in the morning to run.
Are you exhausted just from reading this yet?
So far I have quit my freezer meals group and am aiming to pass play group planning on to another momma. It's hard to let those things go, but I just need to narrow down my list of to-dos.To be honest with you, I'm looking to get some help with house cleaning as well. I feel guilty about it on one hand, but feel like we need it on the other. I'm not the type to let my house go and I feel like keeping it up is all I do while the kids are awake. I hate that and if I want to grow my businesses and my blog and stay sane as a mom of three, I feel like I need to call in the professionals on the house cleaning front.
So new lessons in life and motherhood are abounding over here. While it sounds like I'm whining like crazy- I really am SO happy and loving this time of life. This is the best life has been and it keeps getting better! I'm definitely learning to be more patient and let go of some of the selfishness that likes to creep in. It is hard to let things go, but it is even harder to do all things poorly just because I don't want to admit defeat. I don't want my kids to have a constantly stressed out momma and I want to put them first.
How do you deal when it feels like your plate is too full? Any tips from you veteran mommas?